For the rest of you, those who know better...
Let's talk Latin. 95% of our homeschool budget this year (okay, maybe that is slightly exaggerated. But not much. It's probably closer to 90%) is going for Connor to take a wonderful online Latin course. He's done well with Latin in the past, but this class is definitely stepping it up a notch and the biggest problem is falling behind.
One of the reasons we are doing this is because I don't know Latin, and Connor needs a challenge, and I need to have something off my plate. Unfortunately, I've taken it off the table, not just the plate. I'm tired. I want to think I can trust my kid when he tells me he's caught up with Latin. I know better, I guess. But I'm just too tired to micromanage something else.
I guess I don't have a choice. I was working on All About Spelling with William, while Connor was on his laptop working on Latin. With my Mac, I can pull up the screens to see what my kids are doing, so I did. Connor has spent a LOT of time lately reading comics. I knew that. I wanted to just be able to occasionally take over his mouse, close out the comics, and have him get back to work. I got something else entirely.
He wasn't working on it most of the time. He was either reading comics on his dashboard, or he'd pull up the Quia matching game and just systematically click answers. It was blatently obvious that he wasn't even reading, just clicking until he got a match.
So he had to talk to his dad. I'm failing him. Again. I just don't know how to prioritize some of this stuff. William needs a lot of one-on-one time with his reading. He has made SO MUCH progress this year. Thomas has been neglected, but I've been working with him on reading a lot more lately, and he does great -- he just totally lacks confidence. We're working on that.
Do I dump the history and read-alouds and geography and art and music? It's not like most of that is taking up a whole lot of time. How do I prioritize all of this? I just don't know what to do about anything anymore. And now all of you know that too.
I know I'm not alone in this. A friend of mine told me in our 10 minute phone conversation that she's struggling with exactly the same thing... she's trusting her kids' reports about their schoolwork in the areas that she has delegated away, and she isn't following through.
But I still feel alone. My kids deserve a mom who can at least occasionally finish something right.